Blessings in Time of Pain

As the year is about to end I cannot help but recount the events that changed my life this year. Year 2014 has been one if not the hardest year of my entire life. It started with me having an illness which got me admitted at the hospital for several days and then I had polyps taken out of my body which got me admitted as well. Right when I was supposed to settle down this person I loved broke up with me. It shattered me to pieces and made me rethink all the plans I had for my life. 

But despite the pain this year brought it was also filled with so much blessings. In a span of just a few months, God in His amazing ways blessed me with a new condo unit, a wonderful dog which I have been planning to buy for a long time now, and a growing faith in the Lord. In fact, if there is any good out of all the pain I went through, is really knowing that God has never left my side and all the things that happened are according to His great and perfect plan for my life.

Earlier while I was peacefully contemplating about what turned out of my life this year, I can’t help but cry on the realization that God indeed was, is and continuously orchestrates the circumstances in my life. The breakup, sickness, and even the new home are God orchestrated. 

The past four (4) years I have been looking for a condo unit. In fact, I have already visited some units which were for sale or open for pre-selling. But almost always I could not get myself into purchasing one. Then one time my friend and co-worker told me about this condo in Paranaque where they have brought a unit. Since I had time I got the number of her agent and scheduled a visit. As soon as I stepped into the area I really felt at home. I instantly liked it and when I told my mother about it she liked the idea too. She had been supporting my plan of buying a house since she doesn't see it practical to always pay rent for a place I will never get the chance to own and where I cannot even cook as it is not allowed to cook in the place where I used to stay.

I subscribe all the events leading to my purchase of the unit to God’s handiwork. All the deals came smoothly. I got a very good unit facing the amenities when in fact the units in the building are almost sold out. Other units are already in the pre-selling buildings but I needed something that was ready for occupancy. Mine even came with the number seven (7) in it which they say is God’s number. I cannot help but thank God every time I go home and feel the safety, comfort and protection of having a roof over my head. The timing even came right on the dot because when my ex-boyfriend left me God surprised me with a new home where I can live in peace and seek Him thru my morning and nighttime self-study of the bible and prayer time. Even my dog came at the right moment as I had a companion with me in this new place. I also cannot make it here if it were not for my dog. He really gave me comfort, companionship and a chance to care for something other than myself.

Yes, I lost a relationship but I believe God allowed that to happen because He has something else in store for me. He wanted to strip me off of what I though mattered to me so I can realize that what in fact truly matters is Him. I am complete not because of the achievements I accomplished, things I acquired or human relationships I keep. I am made complete and whole because I have Him as my Lord and Savior. I may not know what lies ahead in my future but I learned not to fear because My God has it taken care of. He is in control and He got me in the palm of His hands. God wants nothing but the best for me, His child whom He allowed to suffer pain in exchange for an even better life. I can plan but if it’s not in accordance with God’s will He will really change that plan because He knows better and simply wants the best for me.

God said, “Be still and know that I am God ...  For, I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans for a hope and a future.” I cannot help but feel immensely blessed that I have rekindled my relationship with the Lord. He is all the relationship I need for now because in His perfect and sweet time all other important relationships will follow. I just have to stand firm in faith and trust that in time, He will give me the right relationship where His name will be blessed and glorified.