Letting Go is Hard

I had a fight with my mother this morning which I admit I initiated. It started out of some silly petty issue and just ballooned into some bigger issues. These bigger issues are what’s bothering me.

I know and get that parents especially mothers who care and love their children so much, find it hard to let go of them, when they start to grow up and start having their own lives. But my mother is an exceptionally special case. She cannot come to terms with the fact that my siblings and I are starting to create our own little lives. I find it even harder to accept a job away from home because she’s starting to say things that are making me feel guilty about leaving. I choose not to blame her because I understand that her love to us is so strong. She just wants us around always so that she can continue to take care of us.

I just hope and pray that soon enough she can wholeheartedly allow herself to accept life’s reality – that children when young need to be with the parents all the time, but soon when they mature and grow older they need to do things on their own with the parents just at the background ready to give all the support. I love my parents so much that I myself am not ready to leave them but I have to do so if I have to go chase my dreams. Maybe I will not always be around physically, but emotionally my heart will always stick with them.